Psalm 63: 6-11
“On my bed I remember you; I think of you through the watches of the night. Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings. My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me.” (63: 6-8, emphasis mine)
Have you noticed how everything seems worse at night? You might have bobbed above an ocean of despair all day long, only to drown in it when you head hits the pillow that night. David had a lot to think about when he laid down to sleep. Absalom… his own son… was also his enemy. He was seeking to kill him. That should be enough to keep anyone up all night. But it doesn’t require physical threat to rob us of our ZZZ’s. Our emotional pain and our other problems as well flare up at night like a spiking fever.
And yet, I have found comfort in David’s words here. He concludes this Psalm with faithful trust in a loving God. You see, David took advantage of these nighttime moments to focus on God.
“I meditate on Thee in the night watch.” The term meditate here means to “muse or ponder.” What do we usually meditate on in the night? We usually wear out our minds chasing down the day’s injustices, like: “How could they have said that about me?” “How could life be so unfair?.” and “How will my family survive my layoff?” Fair questions… but the lack of attainable answers (you’re in bed remember?) will leave your mind racing all night.
For David, God was all he desired and all that would satisfy Him (v.5). That is why He gave his all to God even in the night. When God is all that you desire, you let Him sort things out. (vv. 9-11)
Remember these thoughts from saints of yesteryear:
“I cannot read; I cannot think; I cannot even pray; but I can trust.” – J. Hudson Taylor suffering mental and physical breakdown upon hearing that 58 of his missionaries and 21 children in China were massacred. (Pray Magazine, Mar/Apr 2008, p. 22.)
When you can’t trace His hand you can trust His heart. – Charles Spurgeon (Quoted by Robert J. Morgan in The Promise, p. 53.
I know it is hard. I’ve had those nights… still having them. But in the battle surrender to trust. CLING TO GOD as though He were your only protection. In the end… He is indeed all we need.